so, here's a sure fire way to get motivated...

I decided today that I am going to walk the Dallas White Rock Half Marathon in December...of this year...like in 11 weeks!

Brandie will help with all the training that she used for her Heels & Hills Half that she just completed yesterday - we will hopefully get to do at least 2 walks together each week. The rest of the training will be on my own and/or on the treadmill.

But I know I can do this...I need to do this.

Stay tuned...

redemption...

I have redeemed myself...I have let go of the guilt of not keeping up the past couple of weeks...

I walked 12 miles this past weekend with Brandie ~ 12 miles, people! It was my almost half marathon!!!

I don't think I have ever walked more than a 10K before so this was huge!

My eating has been about the same ~ not awful, not great, but I am down to 192 and holding.
I am hoping to get back to some routine on my eating this week and get at least a walk or two in as well.

Starting anew...again...

I have to apologize too...its been a bad couple weeks and my eating has def gotten out of control. I didn't post what I ate because I didn't want to get back in the spiral of lying about it. So here we are...up 6 lbs. And we begin fresh today.

I'm doing good so far, have my dinner planned out already (which is usually what REALLY gets me!).

Breakfast was oatmeal. No morning snack, and then for lunch I had a pbj, some tortilla chips with salsa, grapes, and a pickle. My afternoon snack was a fat free yogurt. Dinner tonite will be Mickey Mouse shaped chicken nuggets, mashed tatoes, green beans and a little ketchup for the nuggets. That will put me at 1089 calories. So I'll have room for a snack if needed later.

Output: I took a 1.02 mile walk to stretch my legs out today, it took 18.51 minutes.

sad...

I have not been doing such a great job at this...I feel so badly about letting Brandie down. I am her biggest supporter but I just can't motivate myself in the same way :(

There will always be obstacles, because that's life. I need to learn to navigate around them and continue on my quest to be healthy. I need to really want it and to be ready for the change. Even good change is hard to do for me, because I am usually content to follow my same path...it's "comfortable" and it is what I know.

I have always put myself last on the priority list ~ and felt guilty if I thought about taking care of my needs.

I have been looking at many things in my life lately and I can see the same patterns...work, home, relationships, health. It is time for a change and it needs to be now.

I apologize to Brandie for not following through. I am promising myself to start fresh and make "me" a priority. I have to take care of me in order to take care of other aspects of my life.

Thanks~

Back to work

It was a great long weekend, and yes I know I didn't blog a bit of it except pictures. I ate. Yes. I did. :( But it was oh so good...lol

I kept today fairly light but there was one problem. I was CRAVING chocolate all day long! It was awful. Breakfast was oatmeal. Lunch was Annie's Cheese ravioli. I had some M&Ms to try and kill the craving but those did nothing! And then I had a spoonful of icing from a cake up here. THAT did the trick...whew! I had an afternoon snack of a fat free yogurt. Dinner was 2 crispy tacos from Taco Delite. (59cent tacos from 6pm til close, can't beat that!!) And I ended my day at 1230 calories.

Output: none :( I So thought it was Monday and I didn't have to walk...booooooo. I was kicking myself when I realized I'd missed another day!

Finally Friday...

Yes it is!

There was cake again at work from someone's birthday, and I did resist it today. It was easy in the morning, but as the afternoon wore on, it got a lot harder. I was glad we got to leave early...LOL I saw it in the kitchen at work as I passed by on my way out and it made me walk a little faster to get outta there!!

Cake...EVIL!!!

It was a good day. I had oatmeal for breakfast, and then some Quaker rice cake minis for a morning snack. Lunch was a Weight Watchers ziti meal. My afternoon snack was a fat free yogurt. Dinner was healthy breakfast burritos! I use whole wheat tortillas, egg beaters, chopped up ham slices, mozzarella cheese and lots of salsa! YUM! This evening, I had some grapes to end my day at 1292 calories.

Output: none, my legs felt like jello all day from yesterdays heavy walk so I took it easy.

Thursday...

So close to Friday, yet so far.

I had a good enough eating day, but I did eat quite a bit...I was a nervous wreck most of the day about D starting a new afterschool program and I caved when offered chocolate cake at work. Not real proud of that, but I will say, at least it was GOOD chocolate cake...lol they didn't skimp on the icing. So at least I have no regrets on eating it. *grin*

Ok breakfast was oatmeal again. I did have some baked chips in the morning, was hungry for some reason. Lunch was Annie's organic ravioli and Bugles. The choc cake was in the afternoon. Dinner was Birds Eye 3 Cheese pasta skillet meal, and then after our walk, I had some animal crackers to end my day at 1506 calories.

Output: a very harrowing 3.03 mile walk this evening in the lightning with a big storm headed our way. The lightning didn't start til we were 1.5 miles away, but man, that 1.5 miles back was intense...lol I really didn't think we'd make it back before the rain hit as the lightning seemed to be right overhead! Whew!